My Thoughts

I welcome you aboard
even if you are not worthy
you should be proud to be here
what a disgrace
I’m honored to be your colleague.
Fuck off.

You look so beautiful!
What a pig.
Isn’t she just glowing?
Fatter than the glowing sun.
What a model!
Such a my horrid word!

Isn’t he cute?
Quite the contrary.
He’s so kind!
Very much so an asshole.
I’d love to date him!
Why, what a good choice!

What do you think?
My thoughts
are not
my own.

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Aside

I just heard that apparently, Japan is urging Vietnam and a few other countries to distance themselves from and to make enemies with China. Reminds me of a high school girl clique who wants to oust the over-achieving, nerdy girl.

A Powerful Smell

It’s weird how the brain works, isn’t it? I’ve only just realized this when the memory of my family’s old apartment jumped at me, but instead of recalling the way that my room looked, I recalled the scent of the apartment’s hallways. The hallway smelled spicy and sharp, not like the light and lofty air of the air conditioner that is currently filling my room right now.

It got me to thinking how powerful the brain is to be able to overlap with what I’m currently sensing. To know that a scent from approximately seven years ago can still be recalled, and that I can pinpoint it clearly in a completely different environment, even for just a few seconds. 

Weird, isn’t it?

But perhaps it’s thanks to my powerful brain that I am still able to relive moments from my childhood in that particularly quaint and homey environment. I missed the apartment, truth be told, and I’ve told my parents several times that if I were to ever live alone, I would pick an apartment over a house. Probably not when I have children, but there is a certain atmosphere from living in an apartment that I desperately desire. 

Perhaps it was because of this desire that I could still remember things from so long ago, but perhaps it was also because of how the memories were able to stick to me for so long that I gained the urge to recreate it as best as possible. 

Whatever it is, I look forward to having my own apartment later on in the future.

To be honest:

I never expected to get any followers. At all. 

At first, I thought that WordPress would be like Tumblr or Blogspot, you know? An anonymous website for personal diaries and blogs where no one, at all, would follow you unless you were to post everywhere screaming and flailing, “FOLLOW ME I’M COOL!”. The only people I thought would follow this thing would be my friend, I thought that none of my posts would be liked, well apparently not.

But now, I don’t know why, but I feel uncomfortable.

I may seem a bit ungrateful at this point because there are those who actively search for people to follow them but can’t, don’t get me wrong, I actually am really grateful to see people follow me out of their own volition (regardless of how they found me). Especially since all of them are amazing people who post equally wonderful content on their own blogs. To be followed and to have their posts liked by them, and especially to have my writing seen and to know that people like it, it’s a great feeling!

However, it still feels uncomfortable. Particularly because I initially intended this blog to be mainly for my personal endeavors and thoughts and for my writing to be at the side only. Look at how that turned out lol

I’m not saying “shoo, go away, unfollow me”. No, don’t, please stay, that was not why I placed the ‘follow’ button down there on the sidebar in the first place. To know that people are actually reading your posts and creations, without asking them to do so, is just something that I haven’t accustomed to yet.

Though, do be warned that I will still post what may look like diary entries, no matter what this blog is turning out to be. I won’t stop posting embarrassing events even if I know now that people are potentially reading I think.

Still, at the end of the day, I’m glad to know that there are people out there who like to read what I write. It’s a nice change, no matter how it feels uncomfortable, from the other times I’ve tried to kept up blogs (like my Tumblr). So sincerely, thank you to those who do enjoy reading Fluency, I hope that I will continue to impress!